Author Archives: Wallnuts

The Singing Soldier

The singing soldier sings to me, Today he had a shiner. The singing soldier sings to me, He used to balance books. The singing soldier sings to me, His blue eyes reach me stronger. The singing soldier sings to me, … Continue reading

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Of Science and Salvation

Although I wrote this during the period of a walk, the truth is that this piece represents the fruits of a 12 year labour: a struggle through anxiety, depression, alcoholism, drug addiction, self-harm, and abusive relationships in which I was … Continue reading

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I just don’t get to get it

I feel like a kook saying some of the things I say, yet I test very highly in formal logic and critical theory courses — I don’t know why, I just get it. But I don’t get to say that … Continue reading

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Hiccough

We will be fighting a war at the time the planet can no longer support human life. It’s very hard to conceive of an alternative reality. People with stronger technical skills than I can probably plot this as a visual … Continue reading

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An Artist Identifies His Muse

Long have I known that I come off as a flirt, oft even when speaking to those I have no such intentions with. I suppose I hadn’t given this much thought until a sense of value I was able to … Continue reading

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The Hemorrhaging of a Crystal Soul

I suppose it’s his swarthy complexion that leads men to offer him drugs. He is my friend and I am his sage and thus his recent acquisition of meth came into my hands. Yes, meth. The big bad. In spite … Continue reading

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the puzzle, The Puzzle, THE PUZZLE!

Last year I started doing the city paper’s daily crossword. It was free to pick up on campus and I found it a useful way to occupy myself during long lectures in a manner less consuming than the internet i.e. … Continue reading

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Dirty Mind Tricks

As is oft the case, I found myself musing on the potential benefits of a DMT experience to my ever present desire for self growth and development into a more spiritual being, one grounded in expressions of love, acceptance and … Continue reading

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Medication Mancala

Today I was prescribed Adderall in the manner you might hand someone Advil. It was an absolutely bizarre experience, as Adderall is something I have been asking doctors to allow me to try for some time, to no avail. I … Continue reading

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“Could You Not Be Fucked?” – Step 2, Considering Life Anew

“Do I believe that I need to change?” Yes, I need to change, RE: Step 1 – I am not happy!! “Do I accept that change means I must think/feel/act differently?” Change means that I must think/feel/act differently or else … Continue reading

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