Author Archives: Wallnuts

Of Science and Salvation

A brief dedication is due, as although I wrote this during the period of a walk, following an emotional chat with my sisters, and with the desire to be near someone well acquainted with my history, of who Be— was … Continue reading

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I just don’t get to get it

I feel like a kook saying some of the things I say, yet I test very highly in formal logic and critical theory courses — I don’t know why, I just get it. But I don’t get to say that … Continue reading

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Hiccough

We will be fighting a war at the time the planet can no longer support human life. It’s very hard to conceive of an alternative reality. People with stronger technical skills than I can probably plot this as a visual … Continue reading

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An Artist Identifies His Muse

Long have I known that I come off as a flirt, oft even when speaking to those I have no such intentions with. I suppose I hadn’t given this much thought until a sense of value I was able to … Continue reading

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The Hemorrhaging of a Crystal Soul

I suppose it’s his swarthy complexion that leads men to offer him drugs. He is my friend and I am his sage and thus his recent acquisition of meth came into my hands. Yes, meth. The big bad. In spite … Continue reading

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the puzzle, The Puzzle, THE PUZZLE!

Last year I started doing the city paper’s daily crossword. It was free to pick up on campus and I found it a useful way to occupy myself during long lectures in a manner less consuming than the internet i.e. … Continue reading

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Dirty Mind Tricks

As is oft the case, I found myself musing on the potential benefits of a DMT experience to my ever present desire for self growth and development into a more spiritual being, one grounded in expressions of love, acceptance and … Continue reading

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Medication Mancala

Today I was prescribed Adderall in the manner you might hand someone Advil. It was an absolutely bizarre experience, as Adderall is something I have been asking doctors to allow me to try for some time, to no avail. I … Continue reading

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“Could You Not Be Fucked?” – Step 2, Considering Life Anew

“Do I believe that I need to change?” Yes, I need to change, RE: Step 1 – I am not happy!! “Do I accept that change means I must think/feel/act differently?” Change means that I must think/feel/act differently or else … Continue reading

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Share Now Lest You Slave in Peace

People seem to know about as much of sharing as they do of the planet we will one day inhabit. In particular, sharing seems to become exceedingly difficult on rainy days such as today. Drawing an image in stark contrast … Continue reading

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