Author Archives: Wallnuts

An Artist Identifies His Muse

Long have I known that I come off as a flirt, oft even when speaking to those I have no such intentions with. I suppose I hadn’t given this much thought until a sense of value I was able to … Continue reading

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The Hemorrhaging of a Crystal Soul

I suppose it’s his swarthy complexion that leads men to offer him drugs. He is my friend and I am his sage and thus his recent acquisition of meth came into my hands. Yes, meth. The big bad. In spite … Continue reading

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the puzzle, The Puzzle, THE PUZZLE!

Last year I started doing the city paper’s daily crossword. It was free to pick up on campus and I found it a useful way to occupy myself during long lectures in a manner less consuming than the internet i.e. … Continue reading

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Dirty Mind Tricks

As is oft the case, I found myself musing on the potential benefits of a DMT experience to my ever present desire for self growth and development into a more spiritual being, one grounded in expressions of love, acceptance and … Continue reading

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Medication Mancala

Today I was prescribed Adderall in the manner you might hand someone Advil. It was an absolutely bizarre experience, as Adderall is something I have been asking doctors to allow me to try for some time, to no avail. I … Continue reading

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“Could You Not Be Fucked?” – Step 2, Considering Life Anew

“Do I believe that I need to change?” Yes, I need to change, RE: Step 1 – I am not happy!! “Do I accept that change means I must think/feel/act differently?” Change means that I must think/feel/act differently or else … Continue reading

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Share Now Lest You Slave in Peace

People seem to know about as much of sharing as they do of the planet we will one day inhabit. In particular, sharing seems to become exceedingly difficult on rainy days such as today. Drawing an image in stark contrast … Continue reading

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Reflection ft. Mac Miller

Mac Miller is dead. I always said if I’d heard his Delusional Thomas album when I was suicidal, in the throws of my addiction, I woulda been pushed over the edge. I would be dead. Now he’s dead. He was … Continue reading

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First Day Sober

Today is my first day of sobriety so I’m drinking. It’s not the first time I am writing this nor is it the first time this has happened. It always seems like making the right choice will be easier tomorrow … Continue reading

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“Are you a bit fucked?” – Step 1 and We’re Off!

“What do I want to change?” I admit I am powerless over drugs and alcohol and that my life in this area is unmanageable. I cannot, on my own, with my present understanding, consistently manage this problem. “What pain or … Continue reading

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